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My Dixie Wrecked!!!!

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why Georgia, why???

I am driving up 85 in the
kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
just stuck inside the gloom
Four more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
and leave it all behind
Cause I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?
I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
wood in places to make it feel like home
but all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
or just the stirring in my soul
Either way, I wonder sometimes
about the outcome
of a still verdictless life
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?
So what, so I've got a smile on
it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me
Don't believe me
When I say I've got it down
Everybody is just a stranger but
that's the danger in going my own way
I guess it's the price I have to pay
still "Everything happens for a reason"is no reason not to ask yourself
If you are living it right
Are you living it right?
Are you living it right?
Why, tell me why
Why, why Georgia why?


John Mayer

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok , i just found out i have comments on here! How did you guys even know i was on here? I tried to friend you but i couldnt figure it out. I dont know why but this thing makes me sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo angry!!!!!!! I am so very upset that its sssssoooooo hard to use this. why cant they just have button to click if you want to add someone? So i cant respond to yopur comment. Im crying about this!

plant 2

no, just kidding. im giving up tring to root it. whats wrong with the single vine i have? it may not be what i was expecting or what i think would be the coolest but its alive and its what i "do" have.

plant 1

so i have this plant that is viney and is supposed to be easy to root but i cant get it to. Ive tried at least 5 times. ive tried cutting it in running water, adding a bit of sugar, and not giving it to much sun right away. i even tried planting it as is in dirt, but it just wont root. so today i took the god damn plant outside and threw the fucking thing at the wall.

pasturbation

My life is organized into time slots that are catorized with the people i spend most of my time with. Most of them have ended well, or at least the way i wanted them to. The others haunt me constantly. Even though i accept the mistakes i made, im still confused as to how things really could have ended up the way they did. It is this uncertanity that keeps me searching for new relationships that way i can blame my past loses on the person who left. (like if i have a new girlfriend i can say people like me, those other girls were just crazy) i feel like a kid who pet the bird so long its head fell off. Ive loved these people in my life, but ive had no idea how to treat them right. But now i know that they left me because i didnt treat them right, but also because of who they are or what they wanted. Either way, i dont have to understand anymore. I just miss them. Bridget, Anna, Andrew, Nina, Thilde, Erik, Sable

Happy, healthy and sick as hell!

This summer has been great in some ways. Though the majority of everyone i know has moved away, i still have 2 close friends here. My job doesnt quite pay as much as id like it too but im getting by and enjoying no longer balancing it with school. I have developed a new appreciation for the weekends now that i have little obligation on them. I've been trying very hard to find a girlfriend. I've been telling myself the way things are is not good enough, and if they are ok now im sure i will want someone in the future and therefore i should keep looking. i thought there would be no end to this to tell the truth. My friends can talk about girls all day but then say they arent going to bother looking for one. I, on the other hand couldnt do that. But i think i finally reached my fill of rejection. After 27 attempts i am happy to announce my temperary resignation. I conclude that whatever it is that women want, i dont got it, and im ok with that. things arent so bad now. Being alone isnt what i planned but it will be good too. Its a big relief to be honest. Finally, i've been running and exercising a bunch and my shape is defenetly improving.
However, even though all that nice stuff is happining, this is also happining: First i had heart palpatations and that scared me, i went to the doctor and after a bunch of test they said i was fine. then i thought i had infatago (cant spell that) but it went away. Then the palpatations came back for a week. Next up was shortness of breath, severe neck pain and on and off again upset stomach. This things dont seem to be in my head, they seem so real. Why would i create them when im enjoying the summer so? Especially the neck thing, its hurt for so long. Stupid body!

yea so, this is my blog...and stuff

i dont know, my friends are all doing this so i didnt want to but i remember they used to talk about facebook and how cool that was and i was like no i dont want that cause it seemed complecated and now their doing this and i didnt want to but i guess i'll try it.
So i got some pots yestarday and im planting some new plants i got. I also got new pillows for my couch and bed. I think the one for the bed may be too firm.
i dont think i can get a dog cause it would have to pee when i went to work and so i dont think i can get it.
i guess thats all for now. i hope i'll start liking this soon